I need you so much closer, so come on.
My mind has recently developed this internal alarm clock that wakes me up every morning at six something, and it’s driving me insane. I don’t go to sleep every night untill 2ish so that leaves me with about four hours of solid sleep each night. That can’t be healthy, but the fact that I’ve watched almost every sunrise/sunset for the past week or so makes me feel like it’s okay. There is no sunrise today. I’m not sure if there will even be a sun today. It’s a gloomy Wednesday morning, and 12 hours is too much time to waste. I want to sleep so I can escape, but my mind won’t let me. But what’s the point, since I even dream about you? I never remember them clearly but they’re always really fucking odd and crazy but it’s comforting knowing you were with me all night. I don’t know if I should be hopeful, but I still am.. It really can’t get much worse than this, can it? (..I hope it doesn’t start thundering again just because I said that.) I miss you..
I really
just
miss you..
